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Fathers Day! Jun. 17th, 2006 @ 02:00 am
So I heard this song a while ago and well it had an amazing return to me... when I heard this song for the first time after my father died I about lost it... I know this is about two witches but hey it has a good meaning and well it made me cry and think of my father... Happy Fathers Day! Dad

Wicked: For Good

I'm limited:
Just look at me - I'm limited
And just look at you -
You can do all I couldn't do, Glinda
So now it's up to you
(spoken) For both of us
(sung) Now it's up to you:

I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return
Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you:

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you
You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend:
Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you:

Because I knew you:

BOTHI have been changed for good

And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

And none of it seems to matter anymore

Like a comet pulled Like a ship blown
From orbit as it Off it's mooring
Passes a sun, like By a wind off the
A stream that meets Sea, like a seed
A boulder, half-way Dropped by a
Through the wood Bird in the wood

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
I do believe I have been changed for the better?

And because I knew you:
Because I knew you:

Because I knew you:
I have been changed for good.
Current Location: Livingroom
How I fucking Feel: sadsad
What was I listening to when I wrote this?: For Good

again being bored Feb. 9th, 2006 @ 08:36 am

1. Parker
2. Park
3. Uncle Parker


1. Mexicanthunder13
2. Sexymexy913
3. PM8302


1. My Eyes
2. My Smile
3. My Hair


1. I Am Short
2. My Belly
3. The Scare on My Ass


1. Hispanic
2. Polish
3. Eastern Eurpoean


1. Sugar
2. Stupid People
3. Failing


1. Insulin
2. Needles
3. Ipod Shuffle


1. Lime Green Polo Shirt
2. Faded Blue Jeans
3. Black Spandex Briefs


1. Kelly Clarkson
2. John Mayer
3. GreenDay


1. Since You've Been Gone
2. Inside Your Heaven
3. Boyfriend


1. Getting a well paying job
2. Meeting a guy that will treat me right
3. Getting my life on track


1. Trust
2. Sense of Humor/Friend
3. Personality


1. I miss my Dad
2. I'm lost in life
3. I'm I millionare


1. Smile
2. Butt
3. Good Personality


1. Singing
2. Shopping
3. Cooking


1. Get a Job
2. Go back to School
3. Not date anyone


1. Teaching
2. Business Management
3. Human Resources


1. Europe
2. Aisa
3. South America


1. Keegan
2. Kyleigh
3. Aliegh


1. Travle the world
2. Have Sugar poured down my throat on my death bed
3. Become Famous


1. I have a penis
2. I pretend to be macho
3. I watch sports


1. I take Time to Primp
2. I LOVE to shop
3. I Like Guys
How I fucking Feel: draineddrained
What was I listening to when I wrote this?: Can't Fight the Moon Light

Confusion Feb. 4th, 2006 @ 01:24 am
WOW I am really confused about a lot of things right now... Dating... Job... Friends... Family... I am just all sorts of confused... not really sure as to why I am confused but I am...

So why can't I meet a guy that lives in town... I met a really cool guy online... well he seems really cool and I would love to meet him but he lives in Ann Arbor and he works all the time, he is a bit older than me and is a grad student. The only Negitive thing I am seeing with him is the fact he goes to U of M...

But then I sit here and really don't want to meet anyone b/c I need to get my life back together before I can be in any kind of relationship with anyone... hence the friends... I just hate hanging out with my friends and at the same time I love it... AHHHHHHHH

So the Family... yea the family... Joey called and apologized for storming out at my dad's funeral... which he missed b/c he is a stuborn ass... and then Steve and Stormie... well More Steve... pisses me off b/c he uses me when I babysit... like today... well yesterday... he wanted me to stay an extra hour so he could sleep... I think not... if you want to sleep go to bed early, or get a job where you don't have to get up at the ass crack of dawn.

Phil and Travis... Not to much to say there... except for Timmy... he gonna be in a whole world of hurt if I ever meet him... and well Travis wanted to set me up with that Fucker... I THINK NOT NOW...

Jobs... yea I have applyed for everything but fast food and I have heard from NO ONE... and every place I apply says they are hiring... so what is the problem with me... do I have the plague or is it b/c I am over weight... I mean come on tell me why you don't want to hire me instead of making me wait day in and day out for a phone call from someone...

So I am just trying to figure out what the hell I want in my life right now b/c I really like being alone, which if people know me I normally hate, but I think in my life right now I have a lot of shit to think about so I am enjoying the whole being alone thing... another reason I am confused about the whole dating issues...

Dad's Grave maker is out and I went to see it... its really nice but still very unreal...

Kellogg Community College: WOW stupid people... I had to go down and disenroll my Father from his classes so we could get a refund b/c we really need all the help we can get... So yea... go to the student service department... talk to the girl at the counter... sends me to a Mike Houston, who come to find out is the guy that worked with my father on setting up his classes, has no Idea what to do with the situation... so I get sent to counsler 2 and she knows what going on but is wonder why I have to be the one to disenroll my FRIEND... I look at he with that whole are you stupid look and say, NO its my FATHER I want to disenroll... I get an OHHHH... and then sent to the 3rd guy... who when I get into his office askes me why I am disenrolling in my classes when its my dad that passed away... at this point I have had about enough telling these trailer trash Counslers what's going on that I finally copped a tude... and told him the whole story... and the light balb turned on... very dim... but it was on... and he took care of everything... and I can even take his books back... but all of this in an hour... come on... the man Died... I am not gonna lie about something like that.

alrighty... nighty night...
How I fucking Feel: confusedconfused
What was I listening to when I wrote this?: Futurama

somthing fun I found Jan. 30th, 2006 @ 10:22 pm
1) Where did you graduate from and what year?
Battle Creek Lakeview High School, Class of 2002

2) did you have school pride?
Not so much… Boo team

3) was your prom a night to remember?
The limo and the fuckers who stole the senior gift

4) Do you own all 4 Yearbooks?
Yes I own all 4 and have my name on all 4

5) what was the worst trouble you ever got into?
Lies… all lies

6) what kind of people did you hang out with?
Anyone and everyone…

7) what was your number 1 choice of College?
Michigan State University… Go Green

8) What radio station did you jam out to in high school
103.3 WKFR

9) Were you involved in any organizations or clubs??
Spartanaires… Show choir

10) what were your favorite classes in High School?
My Cadet Teaching class and my choir classes

11) Who was your big crush in High school?
Tommy Edwards

12) Can you say u changed since HS?
Hell Yes… in more ways than one… 1st I am Gay, 2nd I have more self respect, and 3rd I don’t give a shit what people say about me

13) What do you miss the most about it?
All the people I used to hang out with

14) your worst memory of HS?
The fucking football team

15) did you have a car?
1 Dodge Ram
2 Pontiac Bonneville

16) what were your school colors?
Purple and White

17) who were your favorite teachers?
Mr. Black

18) Did you own a cell phone in highschool?
Yes I most certainly did… the only one allowed to carry it too

19) Did you leave campus for lunch?
oh hell yea I did… everyday

20) If so, where was your fav. place to go eat?
Taco Bell or Adam’s House.

21) Were you always late to class?
Never… except when Adam drove

22) Did you ever have to stay for Saturday School?
never had school on Saturday… but I did have to be at the school on some Saturdays

23) Did you ever ditch?
only when they had pep rallies…

24) When it comes time for the reunion will you be there?
not sure… don’t know if they deserve to see me

25) Do you wish you were still in high school?
Fuck NO
How I fucking Feel: depresseddepressed
What was I listening to when I wrote this?: Family Guy

So... Jan. 15th, 2006 @ 11:10 pm
So life is trying to go on but living at home is very strange without dad... Mom finally came home today and is "ready" to stay the night... I am very happy that my brother didn't try to talk her out of it, I know shes not 100% ready to come home but I think this will only help her heal from the tremendous lose we have had... I just can't believe that 2006 sucks sooo freaking much alredy and its only the third week...

Here's to hopeing it gets better
How I fucking Feel: hopefulhopeful
What was I listening to when I wrote this?: Tribal Odyssey
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It is very amazing how fast life can change for a family...

Last Wednesday my Dad Past away... No I am not kidding... it was very unexpected and took us all by shock.

My Mom and Dad went to dinner at Ruby Tuedays and in the middle of dinner my dad called my brother John to ask him something... started coughing and handed the phone to my Mom... Next thing she knew his eyes were rolling in the back of his head and he hit the ground, some very kind people who knew CPR did it on my Father but had no luck the Ambulance got there and shocked him 7 times and NOTHING... so alls I can say to them is Thank you for giving it your all and trying to help save his life.

So the Funeral was on Monday and WOW... the hardest day of my life... but thank god I have friends like Adam, Erin, Russ, and Daniel. Thank you guys sooooo much for being there for me in my time of need... and god knows I needed my friends at that point in time.

So his Funeral was really really well done... we didn't want it to be boring so like my Father we had people tell stories about him... and that was Awesome... Thanks to Adam for making the entire room crack up with his story... and he even got the Military send off that he would have just thought was awesome... With guns and everything...

so WOW... in one week everthing has changed and god knows whats gonna happen next... 2006 hopefully will get better
» Spew
so let me tell you... christmas dinner is sooo much better going down then it is coming up as I discovered last night... so now I am sick and I have a funeral to go to and then I have to move my office tomorrow... AHHHHH I am soo freaking sick its not funny... I have finally kept some food down today... but I still need to eat a few more times...
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WOW its almost been a year since my last post... well A LOT has happened... James and I are no longer.. and I am not really sad about it.. then I meet a guy named Chris... we hit it off and then he lands up in Jail... so yea we are done... so now I am as single as they come and really hate the feeling... I am also now the office manager at the mortgage company I work at... so yea... thinking of going back to school for a Human resources degree... the being diabetic thing is going good and well I am still alive... just for everyone to know my cell phone number is 269-274-1848 and my e-mail is now Parker@greatermi.com... Vist Premier Mortgage's Website at www.Greatermi.com
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You Are Christina
You're Xtina!

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In 1983 (the year you were born)

Ronald Reagan is president of the US

Sally Ride becomes the first American woman to travel in space

Marines are killed when a TNT laden suicide terrorists blows up Marine headquarters at Beirut International Airport

US Marines and Rangers invade the island of Grenada and evacuate hundreds of US citizens

The Soviets shoot down Korean Airlines flight 007

The Internet Domain Name System was invented by Paul Mockapetris

Ronald Wilson Reagan signs a bill creating Martin Luther King Day

Baltimore Orioles win the World Series

Washington Redskins win Superbowl XVII

New York Islanders win the Stanley Cup

Return of the Jedi is the top grossing film

"Every Breath You Take" by The Police spends the most time at the top of US charts

The A-Team and Webster premiere

What Happened the Year You Were Born?

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Your Christmas is Most Like: A Very Brady Christmas

For you, it's all about sharing times with family.
Even if you all get a bit cheesy at times.

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Pieces of Me by Ashlee Simpson

"Fall, with you I fall so fast
I can hardly catch my breath
I hope it lasts"

In 2004 you fell in love. Let's hope it lasts.

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You Are 26 Years Old


Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.

God I already feel older than what I am now this makes things worse....

just a little up date... things are good... Trying to find a job and a possible roommate b/c now I can't live on my own(damn being diabetic)... I am not sure if I will be leaveing battle creek anytime soon.... so yea... Steve and Stormie are trying to figure out if they want to do a big wedding or a small one... if its big I am in the wedding if its not well I am not... Aleigh is getting big for 6 months old she weighs almost 20 pounds and no one can believe she is as old as she is, she is getting really big and she loves her Uncle Parker. So we are gonna be redoing the entire interior of our house and this is gonna be interesting cause that means my house will finally be finished, my mom's christmas gift from my Brother John was a lowes card to get what ever she wants to finish the house... YAY.

Okay peace out
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Closed Eyes
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Who would have thought my eyes would have been closed
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So James and I are over... its really werid being single again... well things are going good... I am on the market and I am lookin... just for people to hang out with for a while... Thanksgiving was okay nothing to special it really sucked for me b/c i had no desert... I buzzed all my hair off and well its growing back I was threatend by stormie. Umm still waiting for my car to come back to me... damn brother... okay that was a quick up date... there are a few people I haven't heard fromin a while and well I would like to talk to them theyknow who they are.

Regina George

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Friends Please call me... please... I need to talk to someone
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So it has been a while since i updated this... reason being mycomputer is non-functional... the charging is not working for it so I have to wait and try and find a cheap charger. so I am on the computer as much as I can be.... Steve and Stormie are getting married on May 21, 2005... they are kind of doing things our of order. they did the kid frist and now they are getting married.... ummmmm last time I was home my dogs killed a mouse and left it in my room and on my bed for me to find when I was about to make my bed... damn dogs... well needless to say I was grossed out and well it had been cooking for awhile on my bed because it was turned on... its a water bed... spew... OH soooooo my brother Phil who recently came out to the family is dating my best friend Travis... they met when I was in the hospital... well Okay I think I need to get going I will talk to you later... hopefully I will have mycomputer back up and running... OH I am moving back home soon...
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In watching the news today I saw the Senate Majority leader on NBC when asked the question "Do you think Bush will change in the next 4 years?" he totally danced around the question and came back to the fact that republicans gained a whole 4 seats in the senate... and then had the nerve to say that since the gain of 4 seats happened that showed that Bush has changed... I was thinking to myself NO HE FUCKING HASN'T... this just means he can continue his power trip... and then when they went around the world and people were pissed that Bush might win.. lets think about that, if other countries don't want Bush as OUR president then why should he be our President... I think that he is gonna make the US even more hated in the next 4 years.. we are gonna end up having 8 years of damage that no one will be able to make up... he has already fucked us once and will probably fuck us over again.. down with BUSH... we want someone else in that White House.

Oh P.S. Fuck those who voted yes on Proposal 2... what the fuck is it gonna hurt you?
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how sad is it that people that love eachother can't get married in the State of MI.... DAMN IT ALL TO HELL... I must go cry now
» lacking in the sleep department
So its almost 3 am and yet again I really can't sleep. I do have a lot on my mind right now some stuff I am going to talk about and some that I am not sure about so I am not going to talk about those.

I finally got the okay from Medicaid and then they sent me another letter that said since I turned 21 I am no longer eligible for medicaid and so I am screwed on how I am gonna pay for my doctor appt. and all my meds... this is really starting to drive me nuts and I just wanna cry.

Second I am just still haveing a hard time dealing with this I hate it when I want to eat what ever is in my face and I really can't... I also hate eating times because I really can't eat when I want I just have to make sure its five hours after my last shot... not speaking of the shots those are starting to drive me nutty too... they some times hurt and some times don't they some time bleed and some times don't... they also leave bruises in some spots and well it just really sucks.

I am trying my god damn hardest to lose weight and well I don't think I am doing it but everyone around me seems to think the other way. yes my pants and shirts are a lot looser then what they used to be but still I think I am gaining weight b/c I really don't do much.

I am still without a car b/c my brother is still borrowing it... now that is fucking pissing me off b/c I want my car and I want it now I like to drive my car b/c I am familar with it and well James car scares me b/c it feels like it is gonna stall some times. GAH

Other than that I had a really decent weekend got to finally meet Nick who seems to be a really nice and sweet guy.. we might be rooming with each other next year when I make my Fabulous return to MSU... YAY

well I am gonna watch what I missed of adult swim... YAY adult swim

Peace out


p.s. I also really miss all my friends but I figured everyone already knew that...
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» time to update

job hunt going bad can't find work... gawd I am sick of doctors and I am sick of the same fucking questions over and over again... my favorite question of the month is... How long have you had Diabetis... my response about a month... there response: so you have been recently dignost... I think in my head do you not read your chats it is fucking obvious. another thing that I think is OH SO FUCKING FUN... "you need an Eye appt. and a foot appt. and you should go to the dentist" where the hell do they get this from... I HATE DOCTORS...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Other than that everything else is going good

peace out Parker


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